I overbooked our schedule. I didn't leave any white spaces this week. We have had to be somewhere everyday and have also had to get school done as well as take care of the house. We have literally been on the go since last Friday. To some this may be a normal way of life, but I have truly been intentional at adding margin to our calendar.
White spaces on the calendar equal rest for us. No white spaces, no rest.
This week due to birthday celebrations, church, doctor's appointments, book clubs and our homeschool group we had something every single day. This leads to instant burn out for us all. The birthday girl slept until 10:25 today. I'm thinking she needed it since she's usually up at 8:00. She's been complaining about being tired, so who am I to argue. I know what it's like to be tired!
One of the side effects of being overbooked is that I'm tired, really I'm exhausted. When I'm tired I get extremely irritable and my filter doesn't always work. I tend to snap at people and make really bad food choices. Then I get mad at myself and it just spirals out of control from there.
This quote absolutely rang true with me this morning. Because I've been so tired, I haven't been following my routine of getting up early to read my Bible. I knew that was where I needed to start today. My soul was empty and I needed to be filled by the only thing that could do it, spending time with God.
I couldn't even focus to think of where to read so I fell back to my old routine of starting with the First 5 App. They are currently studying the book of Proverbs. This is my favorite book of the Bible and has had the greatest impact on my decision making.
As I read, Proverbs 16:9 stood out to me. Right there and then I made a decision, I was cancelling today.
I called the doctor and rescheduled my appointment and contacted the girl for the piano lesson and cancelled. I also truly looked at my grocery list and decided that we'd survive one more day. Laundry wasn't an option since I hadn't done it in a while. So on today's schedule was laundry and school, that's it and nothing else.
I truly felt a peace come over me and the words "rest in me" settled in my soul. I spent the rest of my time just being quiet and enjoying the silence of my house. When everyone woke up, I felt better and truly focused on what I needed to do.
Rest is a gift that God has given to us. It's up to us to take it. When we overbook our schedule we don't leave time for rest and we're over tired. Only God can give us the rest that we truly need. Spending time with him will always refresh you more than any cup of Columbian coffee ever could.
Cancelling my schedule was the best thing I could do today. As I type this laundry is folded and put away and I feel 'better'. I'm still tired and ache for bedtime but I know that in the end choosing rest was the best choice for us.
I'm praying for you!